She asked if she could read it before the Frankfurt Book Fair so, despite the fact I've only edited up to page 377 (of 477) I emailed it to her just after 5pm yesterday.
And I'm really nervous.
Not just because, other than me, she's the first person to read it but also because (and I'll whisper this bit) I really like what I've written. That perplexes because I normally hate what I've written at this stage and am riddled with insecurity. Not that I don't have any doubts about this book. I do, I know certain parts are quite weak and will need rewriting, but I'm also quite pleased with it. And that makes me nervous. If I hated my other books during the editing stage and my readers loved them then maybe me liking this book means something's gone horribly wrong and my readers will hate it.
Okay so I take it back, I AM still riddled with insecurity this time around!
Am I right to feel this way or wrong? Do you trust your gut instinct about your writing? If you think something you've written is good is it? Or does it turn out to be the worst thing you've ever produced?
I guess I'll just have to see what my agent thinks...
Taking of my agent. Thanks for all the questions. She's got the full list, as well as some of mine, and will be replying as soon as she can.
Happy writing. May all your insecurities be little ones!
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